Writing a book?

My mom thinks I should write a book, or at least a really long “paper” on weight loss. She thinks that it will be something others would want to read. I’m not sure how long it would take to write such a “book” but I would be willing to try. Maybe over christmas break would be a nice time to start. Sort of like a collection of journal entires, I have journal I have been keeping since I started but some of the things are just too personal to share. I’ll read over my journals and see what can be done. 

Anyone out there interested in reading a weight loss journey “book” if I wrote one?

Vanity Fair

Vanity Fair

mushy post.

mushy mushy mushy

mushy mushy. 

i had the best date of my life. 6 hours of pure bliss. 

a little more mush. 

79lbs lost! I feel FANTASTIC! 

79lbs lost! I feel FANTASTIC! 

taking things for granted.

Each and everyday, we take things for granted. Simple things, such as crossing your legs, or sitting with your legs pulled into your chest. These are just a few things that many of us don’t realize there are others that cannot even attempt these things. 

I am 2lbs away from losing 80lbs, and there are now things that I can do that I never could, and I don’t want to forget for one second how much I have taken for granted before. I feel like a whole new me. 

I got to go shopping in stores I never even imagined. American Eagle, Hollister, Gap, Calvin Klein, and much more. I was picking out size medium tops and size 10 bottoms, and I had nothing but a smile on my face. I never imagined how good this would feel. It’s fantastic. I just want to share it with the world. I catch myself smiling for no reason at all. 

I am me, this is the me that I have always wanted to be, and I feel happier than I have in my whole life. 

Forensic Science?!

Can school just start already! I am anxiously awaiting the start of my career based classes, as I sit here and revisit old bones episodes. 

I am beyond excited to begin my masters degree. I may even start reading some textbooks. Yes, that’s how excited I am to start. hah! 

Is there a word beyond happiness?

Today makes 65lbs lost on my journey. I have never felt so free.

I went shopping yesterday just to browse and I went right to the larges, and picked out a few tops that I really liked, since i’m still getting used to being smaller I automatically assumed they wouldn’t fit. That was usually what always happened, they were too small and wouldn’t even fit over my head. However, when I began trying stuff on, it was too big. I got a little teary in the dressing room. It threw my mind into extreme happiness and accomplishment. The clothes I wanted actually fit and I looked amazing.

I am free. I am the me I have always wanted to be. <3

Sometimes you just have to let it go.

I tend to hold a lot within in my walls. Hiding behind a mask of strength and courage. I sometimes hold it in so long, that it has no where else to go but ooze out. I feel so lost sometimes, as to where I’m going and what I’m doing. I want to say goodbye to that person, and become the person I was always meant to be. I have my whole life ahead of me and I can’t wait to just spread my wings and fly. I have to keep telling myself that each day will pass and things from that day don’t have to be carried along to tomorrow. They can be left behind and forgotten, even if it’s something we really want to hold on to. Sometimes you just have to let it go. Hold with you the memories and the lessons learned, but forget about the tears shed or the days your heart felt broken. You can be whoever you want to be, just believe.

My poster arrived today!

My poster arrived today!